March 2011
14 posts
When it comes to you I am bipolar. One day I am so completely crazy about you and the next I can’t stand you………
Big week
Alright so here comes the last two weeks the ending to almost 4 years with Victoria’s Secret. It is bitter sweet. I’ve fallen in love with the people I have worked with over the years as well as my customers that have come in. I have enjoyed making a difference in womens’ lives over the years and I hope and pray to some extent they have taken those moments with them like I have....
It’s always the same dance and yet I’m asking them to play the song again. Why is it that all I see is good in you? I don’t see those flaw, or the way you treated me. I don’t see how you don’t make the effort to talk to me, to ask me how I am, what I’m doing, when you can see me.
And yet all I see is a heart of gold. A boy who’s been hurt and finds it...
It’s the same story everytime and yet I insist on reading it over and over
I want someone to surprise me. I want someone to show up in my life and completely take me by surprise. I am tired of guys showing up acting like they’re interested but not treating me with respect, not taking me out and treating me like a lady, or expecting me to put out the first night, the first week, the first month. I want a guy to come into my life and really woo me, really care about...
Today is a new day and thoughts of what to come are already threatening to bring me down, but I’m not going to let it. I’m going to be strong. I’m not going to let you tear apart my strengths and my confidence in them. I know what I am amazing at and don’t you dare try to tell me otherwise or that I’m doing it wrong.
Not everyday is a good day, not everything is easy. It wasn’t easy when you broke my heart. Or when you came back into my life, got me to fall all over you again, and disappeared. It’s not easy going to work with a smile on my face when I know she’ll be there to tear me down. It’s not easy spending the night in when all week long you thought you were going on this amazing...
I can finally say that this transfer was a good thing. Two months ago I would’ve said the only thing making me happy in life was work. And I was content in retail and what I was doing. I had no motivation for anything bigger, to change the world like I used to want to do. And then the change happened and I was miserable in every part of my life. But this week I can finally say that outside...
Lord,
Thank you for this day, for my family, for my friends. Today I felt a moment of hope, of change coming around the corner. I can smell the possibilities and I am finally excited about it. Nervous, terrified, but excited about what may come. Help me to be the best that I can be and to know if this is the road to take. I can feel myself stepping back onto the road of making a difference in...
Lent, it’s going to be the start of something new….something old? Bringing back the old me, a new me? Bringing back my heart of gold….just stronger, more secure, more confident, more amazing. I’m working on myself this Lent and my relationship with God. Everyday will be a new. I want to find that girl that was fearless and confident, who knew she was amazing and strong,...
Lord, please soothe my soul and heal my heart. Please take the hurt and anger I feel from all the times I’ve been treated like I’m not good enough. Help me to forgive and not cringe everytime I see or hear his name. Help me walk in the light. Take the darkness from my life. Help me to be fearless once again, to be happy to share my story, to know I am not a victim, that I am more than...
I think I Tumbl just for myself to read
A peace came to my heart today. It didn’t fully consume me, but I had a taste of what it felt like a couple years ago before my heart turned cold. It was an amazing feeling. And I know it will only get stronger and that the wounds left on my heart from something are finally, really starting to heal. Something happened last night to open my eyes to see that I was only in something for the...
I may have my downfalls, my weaknesses. I may feel pain more deeply than you, but at the end of the day I am a stronger, more caring, and much better person than you could ever dream to be
